7 Habits of the Serious Perfectionist ~ Part 2

Wow! Last week’s article got long! Maybe I was getting a little perfectionistic with it. Spell check just told me ‘perfectionistic’ isn’t in the dictionary. Ya know what? I’m gonna let it slide. I think it will be good for me. ūüėČ

Well, let’s finish up this list. As a recap, here are the four habits that I wrote about last week.

  1. Setting unrealistic standards
  2. Procrastination
  3. Self-criticism
  4. Self-defense mechanisms

So, for the next five…

5. Dissatisfaction

Nothing ever being good enough is a double-whammy because it seriously limits enjoyment. Honestly, everything I ever try to do is because I believe it will in some way be good for me or for those I love, and a big part of that is anticipating enjoyment. So, how many of you, like me, have planned an outing or a special dinner that you were sincerely looking forward to, only to spend the whole time thinking, “Oh, I should have done this differently,” or “I hope they don’t notice the plates don’t match”? So something that SHOULD be full of joy and refreshment has no value because of the one or two things that went wrong. Talk about exhausting.

6. Depression

Well, yeah. If nothing is ever good enough, if you can never be enough, and you really start to believe that, you’re going to be depressed. And what I figured out is that God didn’t mean for me to find my significance or worthiness in my own efforts. It¬†just can’t be done. So perfectionism meant that instead of trusting in Christ’s perfection and understanding deeply HIS glories, I was holding up my scraps and expecting them to somehow be impressive. And what I really had to acknowledge (and STILL do battle against) is that I wanted people to worship ME! I wanted people to see a “good Christian” more than a FAITHFUL DISCIPLE. Do you understand the difference? I was leading instead of following. I was shining the light on myself, instead of letting Christ’s light shine through me. And when you see how truly dim a light that is, but you don’t know if you can stop, depression is the result. This is as good as it gets. Depressing.

7. Fear

The root cause of all of this is fear. We fear losing the tiniest measure of control because that could lead to failure. And we fear failure because that could lead to rejection. And the fear of rejection is really just the desire to be loved, but believing that you are not worthy of love. Why do we believe this? There can be so many reasons, and I am certainly not a licensed counselor, so I am just reflecting on my own path. Early experiences of rejection likely play a large part. Who can go through life without facing rejection of one sort or another? Blaming others accomplishes nothing, but neither does blaming oneself.

So what’s the answer?

A change in thinking. And reminding yourself of truths that aren’t always self-evident to your damaged heart. We’ll look at some of these ideas next week, along with a few tips that have worked for me. Some of the strategies are so liberating as I learned to turn some of these habits upside down¬†to get free of them. Sort of like dislocating your shoulder to escape a straight jacket. Except less painful. Till next time.

Blessings,

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Allow me to introduce myself.

I’m not¬†Martha Stewart. I’m not Dave Ramsey. I’m not Alton Brown or Joanna Gains. I love all these gurus, and I learn a lot from them. But I guess I’m more “Barefoot Contessa meets Bad Lip Reading”. (If you are unfamiliar with the creative folks at Bad Lip Reading, please acquaint yourself here. I’ll wait. Didja check it out? You’re welcome.)¬†In other words, my¬†best attempts at creating a graceful, comfortable life often get lost in translation.

I’m a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom of 8, striving for a simple life. I’m a domestically challenged homemaker. I’m a frugal spendthrift. I’m a supremely lazy ENFP with enough ideas to keep me busy for 3 lifetimes. I’m an irreverent and devoted child of God.¬†I do so love irony.

So if you’re still with me, you may be asking yourself, “Why should I read this blog?” Well, for one thing, my side gig is as a stand-up comic. Granted, my regular audience is made up of 8 quick-witted, but unsubtle humorists who find farts funny. But I have this knack of finding humor in almost every situation (even inappropriate ones, at times). So, even if I teach you nothing, at least you’ll be laughing.

But another reason to stick with me is I think I may be relatable. I’ve been at this homemaking thing for 20 years, and I still struggle. But one thing I’ve learned is that it’s not ALL of life-altering importance. Some things just aren’t. In this blog, you will not find perfectionism. Instead, I hope to share some of the quick and easy ways I’ve found to deal with some of the more tedious aspects of homemaking. And I hope to inspire you to find your homemaking and family passions, and devote more of yourself to these. You CAN do what IS important.

I won’t lie to you. It’s hard. You know how when you’re a senior in high school, and you get asked these questions like, “What’s the most important lesson you’ve learned?” or “What will you be doing in 10 years?” Well, I specifically remember one of those questions. “What will you be successful at?” And I arrogantly answered, “Whatever I decide to do.” Ahem. Yes, well. I’m glad God is gracious and has a sense of humor. But truly, I had no clue.¬†I had always been good at whatever I did. I was smart, creative, and determined. I never really failed at anything.

Then I became a wife and mother. How hard could THAT be, right? Heh. Well, it’s been a challenge. Downright rough, at times. But I’ve learned that God doesn’t expect me to be perfect. He expects me to understand that I need Him.

So, if I can help you on your homemaking journey, I’ll be thrilled. But if I can help you understand your deep need for God’s spirit in your life, I’ll be eternally grateful.